Food Poisoning AGAIN ¬!!!!!!

Okay.  straight-forward. i bear it in mind :)

12.9.11 mid-autumn festival i had food poisoning and was warded in Sunway Medical Centre for one and a half day precisely.

Not to say the painful parts, it was awesome because i met a lot of people and bumped into many departments. > <

I vomitted and diarrhoead bout 20++ times on sunday midnight. The decision to call my mum was right as the situation turned worse. 

 I dreamt of grandma as always. I miss her and I know she feel the same way for me too. If she was in KL , I would not need to afraid that much. She always knows what to do and what medicine to take. She phoned me several times and wished me happy birthday on my lunar birthday. Well, it's a quite nice experience to celebrate my lunar birthday in hospital tough.

During my first night stay, I cried myself to sleep. I felt lonely. I felt dying and surprisingly, I let myself to die. I mean, I don't have any regrets or worries. I could and can die. Everyone can move on without me and vice versa.

Somehow, i figured out something that have been bothering me since last week. People stress themselves out for their studies, for their financial problem etc. But for me, the only thing that stresses me out is how to be a perfect daughter for my mum. I wonder why she sees nothing good in me and she is never satisfied.

I want to tell her so badly to live her own life , tell her not to tension every moment and be happy out of her true heart. I want to heal her broken heart. Someone please tell me the ways. I beg you. 

我的男朋友

hehex :) please don't get misunderstood by the title >.<    I am stil single Joey :D

However, this is the subject everyone is talking about.

Seriously, I WANT a boy friend. But at the same time, I DON'T WANT a boy friend. LOL 

I WANT a perfect boy friend.

I want him to stay beside me every second.

  - But I don't want him to limit my freedom. I want my own space.

I want him to be more intelligent than me.

  - But I don't want him to study much. I want him to be that kind of guy that stay away from books and    classroom.

I want him to be rich and owns at least one car.

  - But I don't want him to act like a wealthy kid. 

I want him not to buy cheap and AP stuff.

  - But I don't want him to know about more brands than I do. So that I will not seem to be less    fashionable.

I want him to be handsome and cute.

  - But I don't want him to be damn attractive. Because my parents don't like attractive dudes.

I want him to be tough and able to protect me. My mum's only requirement for my boy friend is knowing how to fight well.

  - But my grandmother loves my boy friend to be that nerdy type and looks weak plus unprotective.

I want him to be good in sports and outdoor activities.

  - But I want him to spare out plenty of time for us .

I want him to stay far away from my place. So he will be able to fetch me go many places to play.

  - But I want him to stay near me whenever i needed him.

WAKE UP JOEY !!!!!!!!!!!!

There is no such guy in this world.

Even he does exist, he will not fall for you this girl.

Okay, so my friend and I decided that I should have a temporary boyfriend for one year. Then, after that 

only find a long term boyfriend.

Nice idea right?

15 % probability this plan will not work and it sucks in either way :S

However, this is a damn weird world.

People get into a relationship in a damn high speed and rate. 

*p/s : this is my type of guy :P*

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