12.9.11 mid-autumn festival i had food poisoning and was warded in Sunway Medical Centre for one and a half day precisely.
Not to say the painful parts, it was awesome because i met a lot of people and bumped into many departments. > <
I vomitted and diarrhoead bout 20++ times on sunday midnight. The decision to call my mum was right as the situation turned worse.
I dreamt of grandma as always. I miss her and I know she feel the same way for me too. If she was in KL , I would not need to afraid that much. She always knows what to do and what medicine to take. She phoned me several times and wished me happy birthday on my lunar birthday. Well, it's a quite nice experience to celebrate my lunar birthday in hospital tough.
During my first night stay, I cried myself to sleep. I felt lonely. I felt dying and surprisingly, I let myself to die. I mean, I don't have any regrets or worries. I could and can die. Everyone can move on without me and vice versa.
Somehow, i figured out something that have been bothering me since last week. People stress themselves out for their studies, for their financial problem etc. But for me, the only thing that stresses me out is how to be a perfect daughter for my mum. I wonder why she sees nothing good in me and she is never satisfied.
I want to tell her so badly to live her own life , tell her not to tension every moment and be happy out of her true heart. I want to heal her broken heart. Someone please tell me the ways. I beg you.
