Is the past still exist?

Sometimes when I come across some places, some scenes, things flash through my mind very quickly. I learnt to let those things come and pass easily. The past is still the past, but never a past to be bad, even the awful ones, they are considered as good. Indeed, every past event should be valuable and be appreciated as they eased our life challenges. They taught us to be a wiser person.

Live in regret? Never do. If you regret on everything that happens to you, it is quite ridiculous, don’t you think so? And please don’t say your ‘sad’ story again and again. Because apparently it will become a habit, a very very bad one. You are spreading negative messages throughout the atmosphere. You make your point and people start to pity on you and treat you better in the thought that you are pitiful. But is that exactly what you want? Stand up little girl, even a broken heart can’t be that bad.

Inadvertently, I already buried the past deep down. I realized that I need a few days to really come out with some pictures. The past that I often repeat in the last few years suddenly becomes worthless and no means to be appeared in my mind at all. It may be good in terms of I already untied the knot between the past and the present and also stay away from any struggling. The past benefits me in which it teaches me what to do and what not to.

Perhaps, in my life, challenges find me, no need for me to waste my effort to go out and search for challenges. Life challenges, everyone is still experiencing it. I know the fun inside of it. :) Some people are pretty interested in my story. They love to hear what I say, most importantly what I have experienced throughout these years. In the real situation, I am generous to share my story with others. Hope to influence the world with it too. I can literally become a storyteller as well. However, no one knows my full story. No one will ever know. I guess the most also 50%. This is the key for me to be an interesting person; people may think I am full of secrets? LOL

 Wake up from nightmares and come back to reality.

“Life is short, Break the Rules.

Forgive quickly, Kiss SLOWLY.

Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably

And never regret ANYTHING

That makes you smile.”

― Mark Twain

‘Pain makes you stronger. Tears make you braver. Heartbreak makes you wiser. So thank the past for a better future.’

How to get Money and Fame -- SUNWAY BIS - MAYBANK MIX - presented by GO4.

 Okay. I assume you guys already knew about the MIX competition.


I am going to tell the storyline and share some ''the making of'' ....

Before that, take a look at this video first to get a rough idea. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=39DmQxxuDpw

Next, I will introduce you the characters.

                                                               Betty -- Tan Yun Ru

Bob -- Choo Pee Li

Blair -- Chiam Joo Yee

Angel -- Teh Min Yi

Let's get the story started !  :D

One day, Betty ‘dressed up’ herself ‘nicely’ and looked forward to go dating with Bob.

ð    They went to Starbucks …… (‘holding hands’)  

Bob ordered food and drinks… ..  and Betty paid with her money (mostly syilings) which was wrapped in newspaper …

Betty was massaging Bob’s arms when Bob found his new target -> Blair (who is pretty and rich).

Bob flirted with Blair.

Blair started to leave.

Bob quickly caught up.

Betty held Bob’s arm and begged him not to leave.

Bob angrily pushed her away. Said that he ‘’beh tahan’’ already(cannot compromise/stand her anymore).

Bob ‘s chasing Blair.

Betty threw her shoes aiming Bob.

Sobbingly, Betty cried at the corner (in front of a lift).  

Suddenly,  the lift ‘ding’ , an unknown girl showed up.

She claimed herself as an angel   :)

Betty complained that she got nothing and she just wanted Money and Fame.

Angel proposed a solution = Maybank Mix.

THE MAKING OF ..............................................................

crew ~

exclusive ''how machi scene''

Pee Li's kicking takes.... 

;D

Dream Vs Reality

Dream,

A series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep

How often does a person dream ? Once per week , once per month ?

For me, it is happening all the time , EVERYDAY. It is not good. It indicates ineffective sleep and affects my entire day.

BUT, something rather interesting is I develop creativity during my sleep, err my dreams , I mean. I see imaginations get into concrete pictures and be played throughout my mind on and off. I use up all my brain energy to develop these creativities. I think much. During my daily life I do not even bother to use my brain to do anything. I guess that is why my brain is complaining that I do not make use of it at all. It wants me to think so badly but I refuse, all the time. I feel sorry to my brain for making it seems un-great in the eyes of everyone. I am so scared that it makes me look amazing and my life will not be simple anymore. I am such a selfish owner. 

I hate to admit this but I seriously enjoy staying up late to do nothing or something rather than going to bed early and being a good and attentive student in the class. HA! I seriously dislike students who give their full attention in class. I do not know why. Maybe because I was one during my primary school? I feel pity for them that they do not have the chance to enjoy their teenage lives. In fact, I think I am wrong. Their lives may shine even sparklingly than anyone else. They do enjoy life. They have their own ways. They know their priorities and see the bigger picture. They WANT and WILL be successful in life. They know exactly what their footsteps are stepping on and willing to sacrifice or ignore the useless stuff which I do them everyday.

 However, anyway,  I am I. They are They. All individuals are different and that is what makes this world keep spinning (or rotating :P) . Sometimes people repeat histories but most of the current ones are making histories. Anytime, anywhere in this world there born a ‘genius’. On my point of view, everyone is a genius. All are equally amazing.

Okay, Back to dreams, what is the content of my dreams? Ah-ha ! Besides the creative parts, I can see the future, clearly. I can see who I am in the future and it is not great seriously. Dude, I am not a psychic or a fortune teller. I am only able to read minds and see the pieces of future.

I am tired. Every second.

During day time, my mind is blurred but my body is the mode to fight and ready for challenges. Vice versa for the night time. As a result, I look disgusting and I stink literally. :P

Well , well , back to the present, I NEED to fix all these. Still the same life cycle, but using a different attitude and perception to face life challenges. Perhaps I ask people to address me as Joey instead of Joo Yee. It does not matter right? As both of them are tough and strong girls J

#caution ! 1300 words. please don't bother to read if you don't want to have eye pain :P

Dear Bloggie,

I  turned 18 eighteen days ago. Everything  feels not the same anymore. I have officially become a young adult until I turn 25 years old seven years later.

It feels so great that I have been living and breathing for EIGHTEEN years. I wonder how many days have I survived. Those days represent how much time I am in a happy mood or the opposite one.

Lately, I have been inspired by many inspirational quotes. Those are good for motivation so I pasted some of my favourite quotes on the board. One of the quotes sounds so : ‘Work as though you would live forever and live as though u would die today’. Interesting right?

I have been figured about death all the time. It is a fear to me although I am still a young girl. It is awful that something you fear of will always stick on your mind no matter what. I was afraid to face death as death symbolizes separation.

I often think myself as weak and afraid that if someday I leave this world and everyone forgets about me. The same question appears at the same time ‘ Do you still remember anyone who WAS close to you or have any relation with you?’ I could not imagine even a second that my close family member or who leaves me behind.

However, Buddha said that ‘Even death is not to be feared by who has lived wisely’. I started to think and immerse myself in several situation. Despite living in fear of death or living as a fearful person, I should start LIVING WISELY. That is the right way of living.

 Although I declare myself as an individual who is slightly different from others, I am still a human being who breathes in the oxygen as others. My life is always a dramatic one. Not to say pity, it is rather interesting. Sad things lead to positive ones and they go round and round.

I truly understand that all the things are being arranged by God but we do have the power to change our mind and decisions which affect our entire life. Willing to make changes, willing to take up challenges are the good attitudes of improving ourselves. We should improve ourselves all the time. I do believe that no one will adverse in studies as the line is always appreciating with knowledge we obtained.

My friend started to write a journal about himself after he turned 18 a week ago. I am not sure about the difference between a journal and a diary. But I know the difference between these two items and blog. Journals and diaries have strong sentimental values as they may be passed on to their children and grandchildren. They may even be published and read by everyone if you are a famous kind of people. I chose to write blog in the form of diaries at most of the time. The main reason is rather foolish since I write blogs to seek for attentions. Yes, I am an attention seeker. I hope to get notice by my friends, people who concern about me and people I care about.

After I get used of my course and coursemates, I have become a confident person. I chose to be an optimist instead of pessimist. My mother used to say that no one would like a girl with a groomy face everyday. I can fully understand that after I gained my confident. Perharps not many people notice my changes, but I do change a lot in better ways. I fought with my fear bravery and gained corage. Not to say I am a fearless person, but I know that courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.        J

I also learnt to be a loyal friend. I listen to my friends’ problems and difficulties and share out mine as well. It feels awesome when my friends are around me. I feel secure but I know I should not depend too much on them deep inside my heart. Friendship is a precious thing and it should never be defeated by distance. I want to tell my friends which are not by my side that I miss you all a lot and hope you feel the same towards me too.

My life, is cheerful for now. I hope that it will stay long. But I know exactly what God’s thinking and I respect all His arrangement. It is normal yet depressing during every midnight ,every late late night. I know everyone’s suggestion is surely the same, that is, not to stay up late so that I don’t have any single chance to depress or sad.  I tried, it did work well but sadly, it never prolong.

Recently , I asked a friend of my friend to help me on something. He did but refused to accept any offers from me. Shockingly, he said he do not want to friend me. It hurts a lot when he said so. It is because he judged me before he knew me and even rejected to talk much with me. He do not know anything about me and I do not know anything about him yet he said that. I hope to clear things out as soon as possible. I thought I can trust him which I still am and I hope that he would not do something that stop me from keep doing so.

He caused me to lose my self-confidence. I don’t know why, I start to doubt myself, wondering am I so bad that I do not even qualified to be his friend. Today is a moody day for me although yesterday was fun and full of joy. I can still smiling each time I think about yesterday. I truly hope that friendship between ‘Hou Ji Mui’ can stay forever. Am I too greedy to think of that ? As usual, I went to pyramid after I experienced some kind of sadness.

The ice-cream shop is not the same as one year ago. I can still remember the first time I bought ice-cream from there , I need to line up and wait for a long queue. But today, even I stood for a long time in front of the order place, the guy still have not realized on my existence. I observed the place slowly, not much different but the feeling is not as comfort as old times. In front of the shoe shop next to it, there is still the same old man promoting his branded products. His voice is not as loud as last time. There is a suggestion box right in front of the cashier, I peek noticefully inside the box. Shockingly, I found that there are more negative feedbacks than the positive ones. People are not satisfied with this shop and there are plenty of ideas in my mind to ‘revive’ the shop. Okay, I know this is kind of silly.

Before I left pyramid to school, I went to Popular book store to buy something as return of the favour he did to me as he do not consider me as a friend. I have thought of buying him flashcards to assistance in his studies but I could not find one. Therefore, I went to non-fiction department to look for inspirational books. Well, indeed, I found a lot. Planned to buy some Mitch Albom’s books but afraid that he read before already. Decided to buy a book named ‘ The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks’. A great story for sure :D